Did anyone miss me here??

I m so not happy that I m unable to blog these days

Am I bored of blogging- oh no not at all
Am I lazy to blog- not really
Am I loaded @ work that I don't get enuf time - not really I hv time to read others blog n comment too
Am I out of topic to blog- not at all. I m just back from a wonderful trip and am dying to blog(inspired by travellouge by seema)

Then wats stopping me???

I hv 2 enemies

Did u say hubby?? Oh no he is a darling.. then who??

1. Blogger itself- since it has just upgraded my version of ie in offc doesn't support to post new blogs..
2. Broadband connection @ home is a disaster n hv to literally beg n plead the line man this weekend to get it repaired..

Oh BTW I hv my usual unending to-do-list lined up for my weekend, added to which my home is literally stinking n my face tanned..so can imagine a list of activities/chores I hv to clean up the mess.. crossing my fingers that my lazy hubby will help me through....

So wat plans for ur weekend??? Hv a lovely weekend, hv fun..

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Yippie my First award and my First Tag..

Wow on 2 things...
1. For Pixie tagging me for this (Me being the first name in the blogger list, makes me feel special)

2. For Pixie inspired by my weekend post and restarting her weekend posts :) I am honoured!!

Well coming on to the Tag Lemme copy paste it from Pixie

The Rules for the Versatile Blogger Award says:
Nominate 15 fellow Bloggers -
Inform the Bloggers of their nomination
Share 7 Random things about yourself -
Thank the Blogger who nominated you
Add the Versatile Blogger Award picture to your Blog Post

Ufff, Nominate 15 bloggers? Isn't it too big a number for a naive blogger like me :(, Lemme still give it a try.

Only 7 Random things abt me?? Ok lemme list down 7 random as well as weird things about me which not
many might know.

OK Here I go.........

Nominations-

RS

Seema

Garima
SS
Bubblegum
Sugar and Spice
AHK
SUJ
Rev
Deepak Karthik

Sorry for breaking the rule I could manage only 10 nominations..


Now comes the Random, (and alsowierd) things about me-

• I love to watch the cloud formations and Imagine various shapes, animals, people, scenery's and love to create my own story out of it..
• When I am alone in Auto, I sit on the extreme left end, never relaxed,The first thing I look for is the Driver's License board, If it is not there I imagine that the driver is a Terrorist... Basically I will be sitting as if I am ready to Jump any moment.
•  I love watching a Plane pass by especially in the night, which sometimes looks like a moving star.. When I see a plane from a small distance, I have this crazy feeling that it will explode now and I shall be able to witness the explosion..
•  The First time I got to know about how babies were made, I felt Yuckzz about my Mom and Dad and every time I see a recently married couple, I have this strange imagination that they are soon going to have sex and that makes me feel more Yucks!!!
•  I am a crazy BIG Fan of F.R.I.E.N.D.S and watch it repeatedly, When I watch it I will be so involved that I will be their 7th F.R.I.E.N.D. when I realise that I am not a part in reality I feel bad.
•  I feel so uncomfortable when I am in a office bus returning back home and when I have something to eat, I am confused.. should I eat or not? What will people think? Should I offer my unknown neighbour or not? what will he/she think.. Finally my craving to eat increases so much that I don't care and just eat what I had bought..He he he
•  I have 1000+ reasons to make up when I get up late.....My most commonly used reason is "Ayyyo I couldn't sleep entire Night" No matter how much ever I sleep I am just not Satisfied...
•  My fav dialogue as a Kid if someone beats me was - "Ayyyo it was already paining there and you beat me there...:'( "  In Kannada it was precisely "Ayyyo nange alli modle novtha ithu, neev nange alle hoddri" he eh eh eh

 Ooooops I violated one more rule, its 8 not seven ...

I am so gald you arrived at last!!

I waited for him for almost 2 months now, Each day when I returned home from Office I search for his presence, search for any clues if he already has come…

I wanted to have him from a very long time, I had dreamt about having him with me, A hot cup of Coffee or Chao with him would mean a world to me..

I have even asked hubby permission to have him, I also enquired many times about him near my house but could not find him anywhere..

Finally in August I was fed up of asking hubby hence went all along by myself and signed a contract (Yes you heard it right, a Contract to make it Legal) to have him for a Year. I know the truth, If I have him for a year, then hubby will realize how happy I am with him and allow me to have him PERMANENTLY.. I am sure hubby will want me to be HAPPY ultimately. Sorry I do not have any Guilt in it, I love him, yes I love him, I feel happy with him, I love the very presence of him around me all the time..

I was so happy to have him @ home, waited each day that he would come Today, Tomorrow, When will he come???
Sometimes even dreamt about how he and me would spend some time, Quality time with each other… I wanted to keep it a secret and not tell hubby about my contract but with a teeny weenie GUILT I finally told hubby and believe me there was no shame, no possessiveness in hubby and he was OK with it…. Sometimes I doubt if my hubby really LOVE me?? How can he share me with someone?? Would I share him with someone else whom he is so passionate enough?? Or may be he is OK with it just because he Loves me a lot!!

Shamelessly I called up DAD to ask if he has come there, the answer was No.. Dad was fed up with my frequent questioning and grumbled on day saying "You are mad, why did you call him home??? Your hubby also doesn’t say anything to you??" I felt sad, I lost all hopes that he would even come… Leaving my last bit of shame I even enquired FIL If he had come home when I was out, FIL enquired details about him and said ohhhh! He is a very nice guy, I have met him before, He is a good guy…

I was like - "I know he is good, but please don’t let him go when he comes next time… Please allow him into our house, Into my life…"

Yesterday @ Office I even googled about him secretly, I wanted to complain that he is still not come, was not even sure whom should I complain to??.. Hence I was super frustrated on how he couldn't value our 1 year signed contract.. Was wondering if it reached him or not. In the evening when hubby picked me from Bus stop we went home, hubby asked if we can go for a fav coffee shop (Not CCD but a small coffee shop next to the dosa camp near our home) I refused as I was in no mood, Coffee without him was no fun!!, my mind is so pre-occupied about him that I refuse many things these days!!…

Once I got out of the car I went to open the gates so that hubby can park his car inside…Instead of opening the gates wide my eyes fell upon him… he was there….He came to me finally.. I opened my arms enough to embrace him… Yes I am talking about RD, I Danced with joy and embraced him finally to my hearts content.. I told him not to leave me and go again… The contract is just in papers, I wanted him for my life.. Forever..

Are you curious to know who I am bragging about so much? Whom I was dying to have? Whom I have been dreaming about??It is RD.. Not RD Burman but Reader's Digest!! Yes I had subscribed him (ha ha I mean RD) for a Year in the month of August, I eagerly waited for the first copy to hit home in Early Oct but it never did, After a Long wait I received the first copy Yesterday, I was so thrilled to see it on the post box that hung on the gate of our home, I quickly took him to my hand and danced with joy!! Literally danced… later I unwrapped the wrapper around it to only realize it was the Issue for the Month of September!!!

RD was introduced to me by Mom.. Mom used to get one every month (mostly) and I picked it up form her, I used to love reading every page of it, be it the Wordpower, Laughter the best Medicine (Its now just called "Laughter"), Lifes like that, My Story Etc..

I used to sometime pick up one from the strands when me n hubby went to Landmark or Crosswords.. I have even hinted him just so he subscribes one for me.. Finally I was fed up and sometime in August this year I filled out the forms and got 2 subsriptions, one for myself and one for my Mom.. Mom received her copy Long back where I did not and was desperately waiting for it!! Finally my copy of RD arrived yesterday but it was not of Oct or Nov it was for the Month of September!! I felt it was kinda Anniversary gift for me!! 

P.S- Hubby hasnt given me a gift neither on my First B'day after marriage nor on our First Anniversary!!

2 hrs of JUST me and my Time.. Wat else can I ask for...

What will I do if I get extra 2 hrs in a day??
Wowww!! Isn't it kool? Just thinking about it I get goosebumps..:p

For a person like me this is how my Typical weekday routine Looks like

6:00 AM - Get up and get ready to work
6:50 AM- In the Bus stop waiting for the Office Bus.
8:00 AM- Reach office and after breakfast start working
1:30 PM- Break for Lunch..then continue working..
5:15 PM - (Mostly) Catch Office bus to reach Home
7:00 PM- Reach Home after a approx 2 hrs journey in the bad bus, bad traffic in Bangalore.
7:15 PM- My Head would say hit the Gym, be fit, exercise but my stomach gives away and starts to crave for some Snacks..
And I much the unhealthy snacks defeating what my Head said..
8:00 PM- Start Cooking Dinner and serve the dinner @ 9:15- 9:30 PM
10:15 PM- Finished dinner and me n hubby come back to our home (we live downstairs and In Laws in the First floor)
10:30 PM - First time in the day I sit relaxed and refuse to clean the house or move my body… Coz I crave for REST
End up watching some serials in TV
11:15 PM - Look at the time and suddenly have the urge to go to bed so that I hv to get up soon tomo to repeat the same old routine!!

Saturday-
Oh I wanna either Join an existing "I Hate Saturday Club" or Start one… Confused???
Yes Saturday is the day when I Clean the house, Wash clothes, Stack up the Stuff needed for the week, Come up with my Fav To-Do-List and start ticking each task, Bank Work, Groceries, Repair Work, Cook something special coz it is a weekend and wat not… On the same holly day the Maid refuses to come so added more work to my already full bucket and squeeze in all these in the given 24 hrs… Ufffff I am already tired writing this…

Sunday
I really feel Sunday is the shortest day in the week.. Do you agree with me???
One day where I manage to get up lil late, Lil is again 8:30 AM, Some more pending work to be finished.. Always dream about doing something nice but something or the other comes in the middle and soon it will be stuck doing something that is necessary and that which I Hate to do… :'(
Soon it will be evening and the depression sinks in thinking Tomorrow is MONDAY….:(

BTW dont judge me.. I am not a boring person,, I try and squeeze to include fun stuff to do in my free time.. you can find those in my blogs..But this is how a Typical week goes by...

My Friends sometimes tease me saying- "You seem to be so busy now.. How will it be after u hv a baby??" I get freaked out even thinking about it!!
For a lady like me 2 extra hrs in a day is like a God gifted Booooon.. Wat would I do in this extra gifted 2 hrs??? No thinking @ all..


First and Foremost I would Ignore or rather completely forget all the regular daily chores and use the time completely to MYSELF…  Not just One I hv many PLANS, listed below are some of those..

PLAN A-
My first task would be to Pick up a Nice book, fill my plate with a Snack (doesn’t care if it is healthy or not) and relax myself on the Hammock we hv @ the back of our home and just hv a blast with myself… Reading novel is like unwinding my day.. Getting into my own imaginations of the character of the scene in my mind..and get completely submerged into my own imagineland like a dreamland…This is one of the reasons I hv never liked a movie based on Novels.. Cos there is no boundaries to my imaginations...

PLAN B-
Pick up the colors and the Canvas which is thrown in some corner of the house to be used when I am free… I would start doing something arty, crafty, be it painting, coloring, drawing etc… This I hv found in the past gives you a very nice feeling... (Oh BTW I am not an artist, but who cares? I am my own artist..)

There have been occasions where me n hubby hv indulged into this habit and hv come up with some good stuff.. Ex we hv done a flower pot and sticked it to the wall and painted the Diya's ourselves this time for Diwali, You can find it here and here

PLAN C-
Watch my Fav "F.R.I.E.N.D.S" series……………
This is the most relaxing Exercise I hv found in the recent times… No matter how many times I might hv watched the same series. I still LOVE watching them again and again…

PLAN D -
Given the right mood of the day I would love to pick up something from the cook book or on the Net to prepare a special dish, especially to hubby as he loves eating special home cooked food!! And I would love to cook for him and receive all the appreciation from him.. I have done it and you can witness here

PLAN E-
Depending on the weather, I would love to take a ride in my Activa and indulge in shopping… Let me be clear, shopping after marriage also means stacking the kitchen with groceries and some necessary items..This shopping will EXCLUDE all of those.. My shopping will NOT have the To-Do-List.. It is like picking up anything I find in Random.. I will listen to my heart and not even to my mind which keeps reminding about the cost!! :)
I always keep Imagining about having a Bawl of a time where in I can shop to my wish and hv to pay nothing at all..
Infact in my childhood I used to tell mom- "Ma it should be something like this.. All the items available to buy should just cost Rs 1/-"

PLAN F-

Wanna spend some Quality time with Hubby, Yes in this busy IT world we hardly get time to each other,, so I would use this time to start of irritating him by indulging with completely nonsense discussions with hubby or irritate him and have a nice time with him like I have listed the Nauk Jaunk between us in the Posts here and here
We have had a great time with our own baby..Snowy like you see here in my post

Leave it me and I keep using all the alphabets available.. Like the recent quote I read somewhere.. "Don’t worry if PLAN A din't work, the alphabet has 25 more letters, so stay cool"

The Main reason to have written this post is for the Surf Excel Matic GetSmart Contest" by Indiblogger which asked the fellow bloggers to write a post on

"If you had two extra hours in a day, how would you spend it?
 So here I am with my first ever post written for a Contest, Here I present completely my views on how I would spend my extra 2 hrs of the day... If you like it write back to me,, I would love to receive your comments.. Wish we Luck!! 

  

completed 7 full years in IT industry

Today I complete 7 yrs in IT industry. Changed just 1 company n I m a Team Leader in a reputed organisation .. But many people ask me "Are you Happy??" 

Well, let me think abt it...

• When I was jobless n looking for a job, when my friends got into v small jobs, with limited scope for IP, industrial n production engg guys, I got selected for a company like Infosys.. Yes I m happy

• I got job on my own, without any help of others ( influence or money).. yes I feel proud
• I started earning n was able to contribute my earnings to my family..yes I m happy
• Got an onsite opportunity for 14 months to London.. yes I m happy
• Saved money n put it to good use.. yes I m happy
• Am independent n has good support from family.. yes I m happy
• Husband n in laws support my decision to work.. yes I m happy
• Got an onsite opportunity to Canada for a month n hubby agreed to give me company.. the 1 month onsite was like a pleasure trip, thanks to hubby.. yes I m happy
• I m currently able to balance work n personal life (touch wood)

But 

• Travelling almost 2 to 3 hrs daily to work- not happy
• The toll on my heath n my increased weight - not happy
• Wat next?????
• How will things be when I plan to hv a baby??
• Will I be able to travel like this?
• Will I be able to balance work n personal life??
• Wat abt the growth?
• Will I be doing the same thing day in day out??
• For how many years to come??
• Don't I wanna Change??
• Change as in what??
• Career change?
• Don't I like to be a Entrepreneur?? Will this dream ever come true??
• Isn't it risky??
• After earning so much did I buy anything for myself? Oh leave out the clothes, perfumes,gadgets etc?? Hv I bought a home or a car for myself?? Nope..
• Will I be able to own one in the future? Not sure

  Sometimes I feel I wanna break, yes I can always quit n stay back there is no force.. but I wanna break means hubby getting some onsite opportunity  n me following him by quitting my job... see I m so flexible.. but will this be possible? If yes when??

Ohh so many questions unanswered, so many uncertainties.. still life goes on...

Signing off with a positive note to expect a better tomorrow!!

I just finished my 50th Post Yippie!!

Oooh I just realised that my previous post was 50th and it had to be not so good one!! :'(
Hope not to hv ANY such post/incident in life...!!! and wishing, hoping and praying that all my future posts AND LIFE be filled with happiness n joy and PEACE of Mind!! :)

I am enjoying this new hobby of blogging so much!! It gives me a place to vent out my feelings!!
I know I don't hv much readers who respond to as soon as I post but probably that will be my next target, to hunt out fellow bloggers n make new friends via Blogs!!

Am I going Nuts or it is that the World n people around me are driving me Crazy?

Gone are those days where weekends was fun.. I mean just 2 weekends back it was all good..

Just my prev Blogs says how weekends were... I guess it is all jinxed now..
Starting from our Long weekend Anniv ..

Our first Anniversary was on 5th Sept (Monday) we had taken leaves on 2nd(Friday) and Monday and Planned/Booked/Packed to go to Pondi... which was cancelled as hubby was too unwell (Cold n cough n fever) Next we planned at least for Mysore 1 night stay trip which was again cancelled... Next was at least a whole day outing in the "Guhanthara Resort" which again did not happen as we got up lazily late and Finally hubby took me to a Temple +Breakfast and then took me to Mom's house where it was good, we talked, had fun, shopped a bit and int he night went to Bar-B-Que Nation (a long awaited pending treat to my parents)

After this flop long weekend came another one..
My Thought- we need to balance between both the sides, We had given a nice treat to parents on Anniv we should do something here too..
I suggested we go to a Hotel for either Lunch/Dinner with family mostly Bar-B-Que again as they would enjoy the Non-Veg food, Hubby suggested why not a resort instead where we can spend more time and play too. finally we thought the best place would be to the "Innovative film city" I was all excited, Anniv plans was a complete Flop so there was something to look forward too, This also came as a super flop... Reason- SIL had come home last sunday (after FIL forcing them like anything) so they had some errands to run hence couldn't come.. We decided we can plan out something else...

This was one such day where nothing was planned hence I asked hubby to take me to "Soul Santhe" @ Palace grounds which was an exhibition of art/pottery/jewellery etc...
This time we both were in good health n I wanted my hubby completely for myself, Is this too much to ask for???
There came his fav nephew, and one more joined too.. they demanded McD, I instantly agreed and after Lunch @ McD we went to Soul Santhe... I was happy to see the wide range of displayed jewelery/bags/stuff.. I did also buy one pair of jewellery for myself... The kids + hubby started getting bored as they couldn't find anything interesting for themselves... One small comment made by hubby's nephew kind of irritated me,, I hoped hubby would come for rescue but alas nothing like that happened and I was hurt..
Hurt coz he is the only one whom I do expect from and when it doesn't turn out as expected it hurts!! When I demanded explanation he was irritated and in anger we came back home... I so much wanted to explore the exhibition but allas that did not happen!!

I was all frustrated, angry, depressed.... came back home and I wanted to avoid any further fights I was also tired from hand washing 2 full buckets of clothes in the weekend immediately changed n went to bed, hubby followed me but did not even utter a single word but happily slept to his glory...Moreover he also went to leave his nephew in the evening which left me all alone to myself which increased the loneliness in me.. I so much wanted to talk to my mom, I missed her so much but did not call her.. Instead was very silent the entire day...

Dont we women have feelings? dont we get hurt? don't we have mood swings? Cant Men understand the meaning of Hormonal changes???? Is it so difficult to cope up with us after one year of marriage??

How can someone expect you to be happy, smiling all the time????????

Festivals n realisations

I am sure most of the gals agree with me coz I am sure they wud hv also experienced a similar thing one way or the other.... After marriage Roles change.. Not to argue that it is more after kids, but I was amazed by this change in role so soon in Life...

B4 marriage I was a carefree girl, never actually cooked in Kitchen, max was prepared coffee/Tea, helped mom at times by stirring the curry, preparing roti's etc.. but never actually fully cooking and giving her rest...
In occasions like festivals, Mom used to prepare almost 100% by waking up early in the morning (odd hrs like 4:00 am or so) taking bath.. getting all the pooja stuff ready, the food preparation ready to be offered to god n to us too :) and there I used to get up by 9:00 AM (that too when mom or dad woke me up)..

She used to ask me to get bath n ready soon so that we can start the pooja

I used to grumble, take my sweet time, go hv bath, n then sit for the ready made pooja..(ready made coz mom's done everything for u there) all I had to do was sit n do the pooja...

Now the role is reversed completely, I am the women of the house, I hv to get up, get ready, prepare all the pooja stuff, then I have to do the Pooja and also lead my Hubby too.. Thanks to Hubby who helps/assists me in it but I have to lead everything...

On the occasion of Nagarapanchami, I realized how much I missed her n How much I was used to her being around and doing things for me.. Although I am not a spoon fed kid unlike my bro, I did most of the things independently but in matters of pooja n stuff, Mom was the one!! All I used to do was to ride her down to the temple or Hold the pooja thali for her or help her fetch stuff while doing pooja..

Now hubby does all my roles n I hv to do MOM's role... oooooh All by myself? No help??

I kept on wondering abt what would mom do first?? in which order?? oh Mom if only I could hv given enough attention when u used to do it.. :'( Hey Mom I really missed doing pooja with u, u used to guide me, tell me what to do next... isn't it too much responsibility when u hv to do it all by urself.. actually MIL doesn't show much interest be it in Cooking or in Pooja so its all me now.. with frequent advice/updates from Mom..

The same holds good in cooking too, whenever I want something which mom used to prepare, I simply dial n ask her.. Sometimes dad tease me saying "It will cost u for the advice" Believe me dad its Priceless!

The timely advice, suggestion, keen interest, concern, Love n care Mom n dad gives/shows is really Priceless! Love you guys a lot! And I am glad that hubby also is a part of it n feels the same in every aspect!

Taking time for Myself

Gotten lil busy from the time I have returned from Canada...

Returned back on 16th July (Sunday), Took nice rest whole day + washing n cleaning...

Monday First day after returning back was fun, meeting frnds, sharing my exp, giving chocs to frnds etc..

Tuesday to Friday Office, Jet lag was still there and work too, got myself a new place to sit which is much more silent than how it used to be before, but I guess I enjoy the silence to an extent(For a Change)  Getting to know the difference in my energy levels from how it used to be in Canada n here...

There I used to get up soon, cook, pack, walk to subway, catch train, walk to office, office work, back to hotel, cook again for dinner, sometimes roam around too, browse the net, watch something over net/TV, pack for tomo lunch n plan for tomo breakfast, I still had time n energy n again go to bed early too..

Here, I felt my energy levels hv definitely gone down, commuting is consuming all the TIME+ ENERGY leaving me lethargic n adding up STRESS!! :'( Is there a escape to this???

Hubby n me proposed that we should go to a family trip to Vellore, with no much preparation we (10 ppl- MIL, FIL, Elder SIL Family (3), Younger SIL(2), BIL and us) embarked on the Weekend trip to vellore, golden temple on Saturday morning and returned back late Sunday night..

(The Golden temple trip itself deserves a separate blog)

Monday, unable to get up and forced by hubby took leave and stayed back to tidy up stuff @ home, cleaning, unpacking and unwinding... :)

Again back to office Tuesday with more work load and lil more energy..

Thursday went to Herbs n Spices, Whitefield with new team (around 18ppl) for lunch n had fun..  Missed my old team for sure.. but change is the only constant thing isnt it!

A long pending task of cleaning god's idols was accomplished followed by a Bhaktiful pooja to god from hubby n me.

Events lined up to look froward to :

Today, Friday- going to a Lunch party with friends L n G, It is G's B'day treat to Rajdhani @ Whitefield..

(after planning for a long long time we are finally going now (Fingers crossed))

How cud I say No when G commented - "Chalo Chalo lets go this Friday I can imagine the big Thali of Rajdhani right here in front of me" and when L has lost her mind completely as she is now officially jobless (actually serving notice period) she is the perfect eg of "Idle mind is a devil's workshop"

Later in the night- 9:50 pm ZNMD movie with hubby @ Fun cinemas, Cunningham..

Saturday - Relaxing + ticking off priority items in the To-do List

Sunday- Looking frwd for parents visiting us, Bro cannot make it as he is on a trip this weekend!

Actually Sunday is Hubby's B'day day if you go by Hindu Calendar too..

August 12th-  My First Varamahalakshmi Festival.

Aug 13- 15th-  Long weekend, Hubby is pressing to go to Pondi, but I am pressing to stay back n relax @ home... TBD

Aug 14th-  Mom's B'day- I guess she will be in their planned trip to Vellore as it is a Long weekend

Aug 28th- Hubby's B'day, looking frwd to it!!

Sept 1- Holiday n Ganesh Chathurthi, my First Ganesh Chathurthi @ home here as I was at parents for the first time..

Sept 5-  Big day for us!! Not Teacher's day but our Anniversary!! Is it already a year that I am married?? OMG.. Time flies!!

Oct 3- Bro's B'day.. I really hope n wish he gets a girl of his choice soon n gets settled soon too..

Oct 20th- Our Love Anniversary...The day I said, "I do"

          Family to approach BIL's GF's family on their marriage talks, hope they settle soon

Nov-  B'days in our family are lined up... MIL, Mintoo, BIL .. Last year we had celebrated all the B'day's together n had fun!

Dec- Nothing particular till now.. May be saying good Bye to the lovely 2011 and welcoming another year of joy, peace n happiness!!

I now truly understand the phrase "Having short term goals, happiness, hopes gives so much pleasure to self"

I just pray to god to shower his blessing on us forever and fill our lives with joy n happiness along with good health n wealth 

Feeling Good!

I cant believe it but its true!!!

Yes Yes I have lost weight and it is shown (only for ppl who wanna see n acknowledge though) Yipppie!! I had given up hope that I will ever reduce.. Coz the graph kept on shooting up in one direction (Direction up) Now that I have shed some unwanted kilos I feeeeel great!! The feeling is so niceeeee

My hubby who hardly ever notices n comments/compliments did notice it n told me too, that is when even I realized the change... :)

When I came to Office 1st day after returning from Canada, the first colleague who saw me said "Hey u look great... U hv reduced a lot.. n skin look clear too, u look nice da" Wow Havent heard this for like many many years now!! It made my day...

With full confidence and hope to receive many more such compliments I stepped inside the office… Fresh new feeling… Met my x team-mates n there one lady passed a comment saying "Aaap toh kuch change hi nahin hue ho waise ke waise hi ho" :'((( sad me all the air in the balloon of happiness was punctured when immediately another X colleague came to my rescue and bandaged the punctured ballon by saying "Chup kar, she had lost a lot of weight n she looks great n skin is glowing tooo" Thanks M for saving my balloon..

Met my close friends over Lunch n I asked them their frank opinion to which they both said -
"You hv def lost weight here, here n here too (I am not telling u where all he he he :)) I am so Glad about it!! 

My 3 Secret ingredients for this lil change WCH

Walking- I should say it was Brisk walking, Thanks to the clean, neat roads, pollution free environment and organized lanes....

Cooking- I used to enjoy cooking, stuff was easily accessible/available, I used to feel nice to cook, to feed my darling hubby. The vegetables, fruits, milk n curds were definitely filled with more nutrients. More than everything It was "MY KITCHEN" I used to cook whatere I/we wished to or sometimes even go out n eat when not in mood.. Freedom!!

Happiness-  More than anything I guess it was the Happy moments that we spent together.. It was just the 2 of us and we were free, happy, Loving, Caring, teasing, Pulling Legs, independent n free from all the tension n worries.. Like I hv written in one of my prev blogs we had a great time.. Better than what we had in our Honeymoon..  I guess it just gets sweeter day by day.. :)

Thanks to Canada that gave us all this and which planted a teeny weeny Hope that I can reduce if I made enough effort..  

Self realization is v important, I am feeling it n I am enjoying it, n I am glad abt it!!!

Am I a Freak

I hate myself for this but it is true that I become a freak, Maniac when I Dont have money with me be it in my account/purse or in hand
I get all freaky n shaky assuming how will I survive, not that I cannot. Even though I know I will be getting money in sometime some days but still!!! 


I think this is one that is flown down from my Dad's Jeans!!


Oh no my hubby also found this out n was scolding me :'( 
Cant help picked it up from Jeans u know.. :)

A life of imagination is much better than the life of Reality

All the fuss,the hue and cry, the excitement, the need to, the urge to-  wanting to hv STARBUCKS COFFEE now seems to be finished/over in one shot!!!

And is this wat I was expecting??? Oh I thought it wud be like this like that like anything,, Is this how it would end??

Oh yeah baby dats y ppl say the beauty, the feel the enjoyment of Imagination is much much better than what it is in reality....

When In London I used to love the Starbucks Hot chocolate with Hazelnut syrup.. I used to relish the taste so much that whenever in India @ the coffee shops I would try a HC and say "ummm ummm not like Star Bucks" 



As soon as I realised that I was travelling to Canada I imagined how I shall be having "Starbucks- HC with Hazelnut" I used to imagine n feel very excited n happy abt it... May look trivial to some but it was a big deal to me...


When I arrived here in Toronto and looked @ all the Starbucks shops I passed by, sometimes even turned back to peep a look.. but did not go inside to buy my Fav HC coz I wanted to hv it first time in Canada with Hubby..

Yesterday after shopping hubby remembered n took me to Starbucks, I had the same HC with Hazelnut,, Sat on a high stool holding it in my hand, ready to relish the first sip....I had it!!

Dats it??? Did I feel the same excitement as before? Nope it was all over so soon.. Is this what I was all super excited abt....

Ha ha ah may be dats wat life is all about, it made me realise how "The life of imagination, wanting to do something, wanting something so much, expectation is far far better than when it actually happens in reality.."

My Analysis and findings-  "In London I used to miss home, miss my hubby (then BF), get depressed and I am those ppl who prefer to eat when depressed... @ that time the Starbucks HC was my only company, a companion for the needy..." Now I have wat I was craving for, my hubby may be dats y the craving for the one time sweetheart/companion Starbucks Coffee is gone in the wind"

I guess I would apply the same rule when I read a fiction novel, I imagine the characters their appearance, their style, their performance all according to my wish and when I get to see a movie which is based on the novel that I have read all the excitement, imaginations are gone to drains... no matter how good they try to portray, no matter how good the movie is, it can never be as you hv ever imagined!!

Knowing this I would love to Imagine to my own glory and be with it!! not that I will not be expecting anything in reality but I will make sure I will stop comparing how the imagination was and how the reality is...

Oh I would still continue to look at the Starbucks whenever I pass by and will  grin @ it as if we share a secret!!!!

Greedy me

• Do you wanna show people how organised at the same time artistic while carrying your cosmetics etc?
• Do you want people to notice you when you open your make up stuff in office Washroom/Airports?
• Have you always considered yourself unluck just like me to not have won anything be it Lucky dip or any such event ?
• Have you SMSed when you have heard a question in ur FM just to win a goodie and at the end felt helpless that you havent won it?

Your long long wait is now over as here you get to win sweet little goodies for yourself.
Check out this post - Simz Corner as she is being very generous by giving away 2 goodies to the 2 lucky winners

Oh how I wish it is me...
Ok here it is the deal , If by any chance I am the lucky winner then I shall also give away something nice so that it can go as a chain in the blogspot wat say?? Very tempting deal isnt it??

Feeling Guilt

These days since I have become a Lazy Bum... My bum refused to get up in the morning... My mind refuses to accept that I need to get ready to office... I feel lethargic :'(

Also sine I know if I miss my usual 6:45 AM cab to office my sweet hubby will drop me, either to a nearest bus stop or to the Office directly depending on the situation and time.This has made me more and more Lazier.... I have been doing like this since a month now...

Today being Monday was one of those days where my Bum refused to raise from the Bed, my body refused to get up as it needed more sleep... I aksed hubby dear and he promised me to drop... Overcome by the joy of sleeping more I overslept and woke up very late that hubby had to drop me to Office (Plz note there is no direct bus to office and it I dont reach by 11:00 AM, I cannot leave office by the 5:15 bus, 25 kms to office and 6 hrs work is manditory,grrrrrrrrrrr)

Got up late, had quick shower, performed pooja and ran upstairs to prepare our Morning tea and to collect our Dabba's. Since weekend was lil hectic couldnt arrange my bag too, In a hurry to leave I just shoved my handbag and our lunchboxes to the car and completely forgot abt hubby's stuff..

Filled diesel enroute to office and ate dosa's on the way... When I was 2 mins away from Office, poor hubby realised that he has forgotten his Laptop Bag... Guilt rushed inside me as I could have taken care that it was kept in the car... How could I be so mean???? Couldnt I have remembered or atleast reminded him?? Poor hubby had to go back home and call offc leave as it would take another 30-40 kms and 2 hrs to go home collect lappie and reach office.

I am deeply feeling bad and Gulit for this act of mine... :( Sorry Hubby for all the pain

Moral of the Story- Stop being Lazy and push ur Bum out of the bed as soon as the alarm rings... STOP taking for granted that huby will drop you to office, accept that there is no option but to catch ur Office bus @ 6:45 AM  ***Amen!!***

Nauk-Jauk

I have been thinking for a while to list down all the wacky/Funny/Crazy incidents/tussles between us (Hubby and me) and started listing down... and here I am with the most awaited post

?Bundle of Questions?
I agree I ask a lot of questions but expect simple answers, mostly - "Yes" or "No"
My hubby never answers my questions with a Simple "Y/N" it has to be something vague like beating behind the bush or sometimes completely deviates the topic but can NEVER say either "YES" or "No"

Upon that he quotes me "You are a Bundle of Questions" " If you stand for politics your symbol should be nothing other than a question Mark "?""
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<The Gothilla Guy>

You are watching something in the TV and ask -
Hey what do you think will happen now? Will he die or will be alive? -> I don’t know (Gotilla)
Hey I think she will fall now rite?? ->  <Gothilla>
I think Mom is not keeping well na, I felt so-> <Gothilla>
I think My dad may be sad na, coz he did not speak to me properly -> <Gothilla>
You are reading Newspaper and ask - I guess this move will be a Big Hit -> <Gothilla>

Oh God !!!!!!!! I also don’t know so many things, but how difficult it is to say something else other than <Gothilla>. First of all hubby speaks less n me more, and I will be looking forward for situations/avenues where I can strike a conversation with him and all I hear in answer is this word that I have started to HATE- <Gothilla> Grrrrrrrrr

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OCD (Obsessive compulsive disorder)

I really suspect my hubby is a victim of OCD, Some of his actions that proves the same are-

Locks the Main door with the keys himself and after locking, pushes the door once, twice,
thrice, four times, five times just to check n make sure if it is closed or not… Then again asks me "Chinni y don’t u check too??" Arrrrrrrrrrrr

When we are done having dinner and are about to leave to our home(downstairs) to sleep asks me "Have you switched OFF the gas knob" No matter I reply "Yes or No" he has to go and check the knob several times and again turn back and say 1, 2 , 3, 4
Finally looks @ my angry face and gives me a GRIN *Grrrrr*

*Alarm Alarm*Keeps the alarm in the Mobile phone and checks it several times before actually sleeping to check if he has kept the alarm or not.. At time it is sooooo irritating…

**Lock Lock**When we are about to fall asleep there pops up his OCD problem - "Have I locked the front door? Have I locked the Back door??" No answer from me… Where is that light coming from?? Oh no Sleeep dear n lemme sleep, The story after this is very simple, He sleeps effortlessly, deep, undisturbed sleep like a "Kumbh Karan" where as I will be tossing and turning around with infinite thoughts in my mind and any minor noise/light wakes me up like this… :P

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Cleanliness- Sorry not in my Dictionary,  Car Wash- Did u say something?? Oh I cant hear you :p
          Extremely caring no doubts about it, very helpful and all but one thing which he is bad at and that which needs a hard push from my side is to clean his CAR… OMG the kool RED color Punto (My choice of Car and the color as claimed by hubby) looks almost brown most of the time.. :'(

           Agreed that it cannot be wiped/cleaned daily but why not on weekends??? I am really fed up of asking him to do so, finally came up with a strategy.

My Game plan-  After all the cleaning/washing/cooking I already will be tired and without telling him I start cleaning the car and when he sees me he feels concerned and joins me (It is actually fun coz we fight) he keeps saying u back off and take rest and I keep saying its ok lemme do, I do better than u :) ha ha
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Obsessed not with me but his Denims - (who on earth discovered it)

My strong recomendation for his Office Dress code -  Business formals + Tie +Formal Shoes..

Not that I would like to see him in business attire (actually he looks very good) but coz I am so fed up of seeing him in Denims/Jeans.
Hubby's Ideal office dress code would have been a Pair of Jeans (torn also accepted) OR shorts + T Shirt + Chappal (Hawai chappal is his fav)

Most irritating part - 
Daily to Office - Pair of jeans + his checked (mostly Blue) slim fit full sleeve shirt half folded (tapori style)  
@ Home - Same pair continued  
Going out on weekends- Same pair of jeans,  
Gone out for some errands like vegetable/grocery shopping- SAME pair of jeans  
Sometimes in continues on BED tooo if not told/scolded..

He doesnt even bother to put that jeans to wash unless it stinks or unless asked and it may be range from 2 to 3 months or even more for that matter
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Extremezzzz Unlimited 
Like any Unit has its 'MIN Value', 'NORM Value' and 'MAX Value', my hubby can never have Norm behavior his would either be MIN or MAX in all the matters.

Either No Gifts OR Surprises @ all or a sudden shock/surprise/expensive gift
Either not talking @ all OR being Nonstop chatter and talkitive
Either too loving/Caring (oh by the way this is not being romantic coz this word is not in his dictionary) OR just not bothered types..
Either too enthusiastic OR too Boring
Either too Foodie OR no interest in Food @ all
Either too punctual OR tooo Lazy

Why cant he be normal, neither MIN nor MAX just the Norm...????????? 
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His curiosity n my short term memory loss :(

I am a person who b4 watching the movie doesn’t want to know the story @ all n hubby is a complete opposite..

OMG it’s a punishment to watch some movie which I have watched b4 and he hasn’t and doesn’t know the story, Not that I don’t enjoy but coz of his frequent QUESTIONS on what will happen next?? Will he die? Will he not die? Etc etc… firstly I would not want to tell him and destroy the suspense, secondly and the worst part is I forget the Climax of most of the movies, I would remember the scenes but just cannot recollect the climax of the movies… Poor hubby will keep asking, I will either say No or say Cant recollect ha ha wat a fun ;)
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 Games (Card Game/Game in Mobile) 

 Ok here it goes, If I know a game be it a the card game Rummy or a Bubble breaker on Mobile I would be in full josh to teach him on the other hand he wants to learn the game by himself in his own pace… Why cant he listen to me and learn form me??? I would love to teach him but he is not ready to :'( OK agreed he will want to learn by himself, my hands will be itching to teach him seeing him struggle but he completely refuses to take the tips, clues form me, Poor me :'(  
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Forgot my B'day??

You like someone from your school time but never told her, you met her again in Engineering, 2 years in between (11th and 12th) you have missed her and claim that you have remembered her each day and you have forget her B'day…..
Is this acceptable??
His answer-  A person loves her so much, remembers her each day and missed her and he forgets to remember one day which is her B'day and that’s it all gone?? What's it in a date when he remembered her all the time?? Sounds Filmy isn't it??? But this is what my hubby had told me in engineering when we met again after a gap of 2 years and had forgotten my B'day…
Actually I was completely Impressed and flattered by his dialogue.. Now when I think back I feel- How can you forget my B'day????

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Torture with Dates???

Hammm this is one of my Game plan to torture him... ;)
My only question would be - "Do you remember whats special today??"

Hubby gets all tensed and gives work to his brains, racks his mind to find out whats the importance of that date. Is it B'days- No, Marriage Anniv- No, Love Anniv- No, DOJ the company of one of us- No, Date that I had travelled to UK- No, Date I returned to India- No…..

Series of such incidents keep flashing in his mind and for one time in life I will keep him busy thinking about us and believe me it gives me immense pleasure to tease n tortur him... 
You call me "Krrur singh" or saddis, I dont mind I just love it.. :)
Troubling n teasing him and finally blackmailing him emotionally saying "How come you forgot this very special day" ??
Hubby is not any less coz he has his own  Counter Plan- As soon as I ask him the importance of the day, he immedietely says, You first tell me whats the improtance of tommorrow, I know it but you tell me…, even b4 I deny that there is no relevance, he says"Oh chinni, how come you forgot this? It is so Special to us" Grrrrrrrrrrr

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This is not THE END, I am sure I shall keep visiting this blog @ regular intervals to update ;) 

One of those days…… where nothing goes right!!

Not sure what stuck me that morning, In full zoom had bath in the morning, changed clothes n felt that my body was kinda rigid and needs some exercise, hence decided to do some toe touches as my hubby went up to get our packed lunch boxes and morning tea..

1….2 and there came the deadly 3 and here comes the low back pain………Aaaaaaaaaah I felt like someone is holding my low back and pulling it, my immediate reaction was to look around to see who did that to me.. (Especially after listening to Bhoot stories @ office the thing was still in my mind)

I couldn’t walk to the next room, tired I slept off on the bed, Hubby was scared to see me suffer and told me not to go to office…. Me like a big fool said "Its ok its not much may be just a muscle catch" took rest for 5 mins and got ready and asked him to drop me to the Office bus…

Once in office the pain became unbearable and I decided to return back home in a cab… It took me 10 phone calls to all possible cab companies, finally one of them agreed to drop me… I went directly to the Ayurvedic massage centre and got a nice Kerala style massage thinking that everything will be alright..Hubby came soon to pick me up and we went home, Mom n dad called up and asked me to go to a doc (orthopedic), Hubby also insisted a lot and finally I agreed to go..

2 hrs of waiting 1 X-ray, lots of tension, scared that it might be a "Slip disc" finally met the doc and he says "No fracture but it is a "Acute Lumbosacral strain" and that you need bed rest, no climbing stairs and 10 physiotherapy sessions" . There was definitely a temporary relief that it was not serious but on the other hand I had to be on complete rest for 3 days and therapies :'( Hubby's first reaction was "Thanks god"!! He immediately ordered me not to go to office for 3 days and take complete bed rest. Innumerable questions pop up in my mind-  Oh 3 days leave to office, I think it may be LOP
3 days complete bed rest, Cant climb stairs??? How will I manage everything etc… Got my first therapy done and left home…

Day 1 @ Home (Wednesday)
Poor darling hubby WFH and stayed with me and took very nice care of me, did not allow me to even walk or do anything,.. Hubby even changed the position of TV so that I can view it while sleeping on the bed from the room chooooo sweet na :). Staying @ home whole day and not allowed to do any work is so boring @ the same time its nice coz u r treated like a Queen, I was getting little bored too coz hubby couldn’t spend much time as he was working from home :)
I slept well, ate well and rested the whole day.

Day 2 @ Mom's house(Thursday)
After discussing with hubby on the situational following points emerged and we chose to go to Mom's house-

• We did not wanted to give unnecessary work/tensions to MIL as she also could not also climb stairs
• I would also become restless and lonely @ home
• I wanted to see Mom n Dad mostly Dad
• They couldn't visit my house as it was not 45 days since my granny passed away :(
• So after thinking all this we decided to go to Mom's house

Thursday morn enroute to hubby's office he dropped me @ Mom's house after having a nice breakfast. This was the First time after marriage I stayed @ Mom's house and took complete rest, Just ate and did nothing… :) Felt nice it is such a relief too.. Chatted wit parents, ate, watched TV read my novel, browsed for sometime and ultimately towards the night missed hubby a lot… I wonder how my mom used to take a 2 month vacation to Mysore without dad… One day and I was missing hubby.. Really should appreciate Mom coz she did it for kids sake and little herself too :)

Day 3 (Friday)- Akshaya Thrithiya

Got up lazily, had tea @ the balcony, read paper, breakfast was ready ate, watched TV wow felt royal :)
Got facial done @ home as a beautician was asked to com home itself and relaxed myself for the rest of the day, Was little excited to see hubby in the evening and lil sad that all the luxuries of sitting and eating will be over as I would be returning back home..we left @ around 7:00 went to a jewellery shop to buy gold as it was akshaya thrithiya and then to my therapy and then back to home… Felt nice and tired too :(

Day 4 (Saturday)
Back to home, back to reality, cleaning, washing, cooking, preparing for the week to come, the day went off like this, Although I restrained to work I couldn’t resist and the day went as usual. Hubby really helped me in all the chores..

Day 5 (Sunday)
Looked Like I was back in track coz I prepared poori for breakfast, pulkas and Kichdi for lunch, washed clothes got tired and slept off. Took an appointment in Lakme for a hair cut and ended up pampering myself with a Hair spa too :), at around 8:00 realized that the week of pampering myself was over and I had to return to the crude, harsh world of reality :'(